i've been trying real hard to let myself got into so many distractions. just to fool myself away from what i dont want to know. [but when the truth is, i actually do]. i thought it might be the safest thing to secure myself. cant tell whether it's actually working well or not. but somehow i can be sure that when the real thing strikes, i'm gonna be lying on the floor FLAT. dont want that to happen though.

going to andini's house, watching euro 2004, meeting friends, going out with tista, and now.. maybe with ervand also. watch spiderman, take lunch together, take pictures with friends, played cards 'till death do us part... until the itme when i was accused of being crazy at some point. it was fun, it is fun, and it's going to be fun.

sometimes i think that i have so many wonderful things ahead of me, and i'm missing all the fun. i let myself focusing on the wrong point. :/